...to feeling shit all the time.
Partner has moved out, so cold my damn toes blistered last night. Going to sleep as the sun comes up, waking for a single meal a day, sleeping after sitting staring at a computer all night.
Not working, same things just buzzing around my head constantly, yeah i guess it's all pretty shit.
BUT HEY I'M NOT GAMBLING!!
Friday, 22 June 2012
Monday, 14 May 2012
An Exciting Story that Everyone Should Read!
Post was originally titled "A Boring Piece of Shit That No-One Will Ever Read" but decided to make the minor adjustments in keeping with my new found optimism. So let's talk about that.
Lately I've been getting up at 8:30am each day and going to sleep around 10pm which is incredibly bizarre for me, I don't recall EVER doing that for more than 1-2 days in a row. I am also catching myself sinking into depression more and being able to avert it sometimes, and if it does take a hold I'm able to tell myself that it will pass and I'll feel better. Why haven't you tried doing that before?
For awhile I was getting worse, was thinking about suicide more often and for longer periods, I suppose I could now be in one of those rebound states mentioned above, ready to plummet into despair any day now, hopefully not.
Interestingly all this has happened since I've stopped taking my anti-depressants.
Anyway there's some words for whoever, hopefully they'll mean something to someone.
Lately I've been getting up at 8:30am each day and going to sleep around 10pm which is incredibly bizarre for me, I don't recall EVER doing that for more than 1-2 days in a row. I am also catching myself sinking into depression more and being able to avert it sometimes, and if it does take a hold I'm able to tell myself that it will pass and I'll feel better. Why haven't you tried doing that before?
For awhile I was getting worse, was thinking about suicide more often and for longer periods, I suppose I could now be in one of those rebound states mentioned above, ready to plummet into despair any day now, hopefully not.
Interestingly all this has happened since I've stopped taking my anti-depressants.
Anyway there's some words for whoever, hopefully they'll mean something to someone.
Thursday, 26 April 2012
is all gone
last few times.... free chips... won a fair bit, i mean, it doesn't mean anything anymore.. but more than a few weeks average wages.. winning.. but then losing, and even when winning is losing... i need to lose, i need to fail. it's not a good thing. anyway i hope you have a nice day.
Saturday, 21 April 2012
I look in the mirror and all I see
is;
someone who craves losing more than happiness.
someone who shuns the nicest people they meet.
someone who just can't think of a reason.
someone who still thinks they're important even though they're posting to a blog that literally no-one reads.
someone who doesn't give a fuck if by reading that last point you've disproved it.
i look in the mirror and all i see is the same old face staring back at me.
that might be a quote, i don't know, i don't care- fuck you, fuck you all.
someone who craves losing more than happiness.
someone who shuns the nicest people they meet.
someone who just can't think of a reason.
someone who still thinks they're important even though they're posting to a blog that literally no-one reads.
someone who doesn't give a fuck if by reading that last point you've disproved it.
i look in the mirror and all i see is the same old face staring back at me.
that might be a quote, i don't know, i don't care- fuck you, fuck you all.
Monday, 9 April 2012
Friday, 6 April 2012
Tuesday, 3 April 2012
Gambling online with PayPal
After you've exhausted your lines of credit and locked yourself out of your accounts you may decide to turn to using your Paypal account to gamble.
In all but a handful of countries this is against their ToS but for a seasoned gambling addict there are ways around it.
Most of these involve transferring from your PP to a different eWallet or currency, such as uKash, however a word of warning if you decide to go this route;
Do not.
No reputable business will trade Paypal for anything without at least a 7 day cooling off period. If you DO find somewhere that offers instant conversions, it is a scam. I would list sites here that are scams but it's easier for me to list the ones that aren't scams:
1. None.
They will "process" your order, there will then be some problem with processing, they'll make something up, and they will tell you to file a Paypal Claim to get your money back.
Sounds fair enough right?
Nope, As soon as you file a claim and tell Paypal it was for a non-tangible (virtual) item, they will side with the seller, as the PP buyer protection policy does not cover these goods.
So if you have still done this and find yourself reading this, file an Unauthorized Transaction dispute instead.
In all but a handful of countries this is against their ToS but for a seasoned gambling addict there are ways around it.
Most of these involve transferring from your PP to a different eWallet or currency, such as uKash, however a word of warning if you decide to go this route;
Do not.
No reputable business will trade Paypal for anything without at least a 7 day cooling off period. If you DO find somewhere that offers instant conversions, it is a scam. I would list sites here that are scams but it's easier for me to list the ones that aren't scams:
1. None.
They will "process" your order, there will then be some problem with processing, they'll make something up, and they will tell you to file a Paypal Claim to get your money back.
Sounds fair enough right?
Nope, As soon as you file a claim and tell Paypal it was for a non-tangible (virtual) item, they will side with the seller, as the PP buyer protection policy does not cover these goods.
So if you have still done this and find yourself reading this, file an Unauthorized Transaction dispute instead.
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